Saturday, February 17, 2007,11:50 pm
CHINESE NEW YEAR EVE
EESH .
reaally ages sinces i last blogged .
i dont know why .
but since i stopped blogging .
i unconsciously open up less .
hm . firstly .
happy chinese new year EVE ! :D
andd .. hm .
happy chinese new year :D
just a few more hours .
just came back from ahma's house .
funny .
i neverr really thought what reunion dinner actually meant till this year .
haas .
well . dad says its the reunion of the sons .
hmm . then dont the daughters have reunions ? lols .
nothing much actually .
aint that cosy with dad's side =x
we watched xmen3 . a little of pan's labyrinth [disturbing show] and tu ran fa cai (:
watched pan's labyrinth last night too .
fell asleep during dream gurlls =x
it is SERIOUSLY a fairytale for adults .
all the gore . the disturbing looking faun .
and a not so storybook ending .
my hair still shivers thinking about the show =x
it came to mind "jiamin would like this show"
yeaaa .. so youu can roughly know where it stands .
and NO . not the disturbing comic kind . haas .
watched the show . the perfect man this morning too .
HEH . HEHIM thought i referring to him .
dream on :D
err . anyways .
haas . about a modern teenage gypsy .
ohkay . not exactly .
because after every heartbreak . her mum forces them to move .
so .. the whole issue about fearr of getting close to the anyone .
cos they wouldnt want the hurt of leaving .
so . the daughter creates an imaginary perfect man for her mum .
who she DOES end up falling in love with .
ohkay ohkay . i dont nag so much about the show =x
typical teen show i guess . haas .
say until where le .
OH YA . reunion dinner .
well . junjie was asking many thought provoking questions .
i dont know why .
i neverr dared to open up to him .
orr even sit near him =\
long story . haas .
ahma's back is better . i guess (:
she was well and hyped enough to cook today :D
weets . thank God .
kinda pms-ed out on the way home .
ohkay . i admit .
i DO get frustrated easily .
i DO get agitated easily .
and im not exactly the world's most patient person when it comes to most things.
but seriously . its not the first time .
why do people bother asking me . when they're just going to find whatever reason to contradict whatever i say ?
orr even listen for the matter .
especially mum .
i was sitting right beside herr .
and when i asked .
even dad and qiang heard it .
and she goes .
WHAT ? HUH ? the WHAT ?
then when i get frustrated and say nvm .
she will keep FUSSING AND PUSHING .
SAY LARHS . WHAT WHAT WHAT ?
i mean . it DOES get annoying larhs =x
not the first time today -.-"
betterr go dig herr ears out .
and just now .
when qiang asked me .
is this shirt nice ?
then i said . yeapps . nicee .
then he starts asking .
where got nice ?
which part nice ?
eeeew . why you say nice ?
nice mehs ?
you see this part . how come still say nice ?
i mean.
already adding to the mum frustration .
if you're just going to contradict what i say .
and dont believe .
WHY BOTHER ASKING ME ?
darn . im becoming cranky =x
and the i had to restart the com about 4 times .
cos the stuff wasnt working .
eeesh .
but funny thing is .
when i was so agitated .
and i was about to burst it all out to HEHIM.
but then . the moment HIMHE talked to me .
i suddenly felt relaxed and couldnt help but smile .
haas . thanks alot :D
i've been thinking quite a bit about what happened on friday .
but . im at wits' end too .
i know what has to be done . but the problem is .. how ?
where's my scream hotline !! haas .
hmm . also to jarryl .
yesh . things DO happen for a reason .
but pleasee . youu think what happened was because youu were suay ?
you were the one who made it this way .
yourr past .
yourr actions .
think about it . can you blame her decision if you were in her shoes ?
but if you're really sincere this time .
stop the lies . stop the hopping .
prove it .
and at least . if she still keeps to her choice .
it will be for the REAL you .
seriously . beneath lies jarryl who is a great guy . im sure (:
what the heck . he's not going to read this anyways .
im just putting it here to get it out of my system .
i WILL burst at him later =x
also . fiqah got herr hp back .
WOOTS :DD
hm . what happened last night .
love is tiring . of course it is .
but . think about it .
nothing which is worth it comes easy .
what happens when you're tired ?
things just slowly grow harder and more messy .
if youu still love him .
nobody's forcing you to give up .
and even if they did . you wont .
he's in a mess of confusion of his own .
im sure with time . he WILL change too .
youu can eitherr choose to wait for that . orr let it go gradually .
obviously it wont happen overnight.
but . eitherr way . dont let it pull yourr self esteem down .
things like this happen .
it would be wierd if they DIDNT .
precisely.
everything DOES happen for a reason .
but please . thats not the excuse to NOT do anything at all .
its OUR actions and unconscious decisions that make things turn out the way they do .
everything thats worth keeping comes needs effort, understanding, trust and risks.
especially friendship.
it takes two hands to clap .
if you dont give it to others in the first place
how can you expect others to give it to you ?
ohkay . give was the wrong word . but then . the concept is there ^^"
Lord .
i see whats happening around me .
they're becoming oh-so evident.
the things happening to my friends and family .
the ones i care about .
how can i be xin fu when they're like this ?
lord . i pray you would help me to help them .
i want to be there for them .
i just need your hand so that i can do the right thing .
if not . i dont deserve what i have now .
please lord . things need to take a turn to the right direction .
take this as my chinese new year resolution.
i really cherish them . i dont want to lose them .
i just pray they could see that.
amen.
heartofGodchurch